Pain, Healing, and Purpose

Pain can take many forms. As a pretty concrete person, when I hear pain, I first think about physical pain. Since I live with chronic pain, I’m well acquainted with this kind of pain. However, I’m also acquainted with psychological and emotional pain, not just as a woman living with terminal cancer, but also as […]

Pain, Healing, and Purpose

Visiting the Nyholm’s Redoubt

Today my friend and I visiting the Nyholm’s Redoubt in Bodo Norway. We met both snow and sunny weather on our way. But that is how it have to be up North during the winter. You just have to dress properly and not forget the spiked shoes.

The facts

As far as I know, the Nyholm`s Redoubt was buildt in 1806 to protect the grain storage from attacks from the English warships. This was during the English blockade and Norway was back then part of Denmark, and they supported Napoleon..

The Nyholm`s redoubt The Nyholm`s redoubt

The grain and the fishery failed and the people became totally depended on supplies of grains coming from Russia.. The Nyholm’s Redoubt was taking care of by local fishfarmers suffering under bad conditions.

The Redoubt was never under attacks but it had a deterent effect with its 12 canons and a garnison with 150 men. The war was over in 1818 and handed over to the local authorities. 

The Redoubt was closed in 1835 but in the 1960’s some men started to repair and rebuild the Redoubt.

One of the canons at the Redoubt Canons of the Redoubt

Beautiful view

A lighthouse can be seen from the Nyholm`s Redoubt A fisher boat in the harbour 


  A ferry heading for Lofoten

Looking down at what used to be a lighthouse

The Nyholm’s Redoubt today

The Redoubt is a very popular place to visit. It is a terrain for almost everyone but the last steep hill up to the Redoubt is a backdraw if you are depended on a wheelchair. The view is beautiful and when I am there I do not want to leave. But I can not hurry in such a scenery…….

The Nyholm`s Redoubt
The Redoubt in the Winter

If you, one time in the future and after the Pandemic, want to visit Bodo in Norway, visiting the Nyholm`s Redoubt is highly recommended. Both the boat- and sailing associations are very active and the harbour is pretty lively during spring, summer and autumn.

Hiking in my neighbourhood


Hiking in my neighbourhood

I am so lucky living in a city where I actually can be hiking in my neighbourhood.

Hiking in my neighbourhood

My city

I am living in a small town called Bodo with just 50 000 inhabitants. Many of us, including me come from suburban districts and we have to move to a city for college or university.
The Vestfjord

Hiking in my neighbourhood

Early April 2021 still ice on the water

Every Sundays my best friend and I are having a long walk. It can be up in the mountain or by the sea. Everything is so close. The opportunities are many. Our goal is to reach a minimum of 10 000 steps and that is not hard to get.
Hiking in my neighbourhood
We are up in the mountain looking down at the town. The funny thing is when we are walking we nod or say hello to complete strangers, and sometimes many want to talk. I find that really amusing. Maybe that is strengthened because of the pandemic. But that is also a part of the north Norwegian spirit.

When the sun is back

This time of the year you have to wear shoes with ice spikes on. To days walk was really icy, but we came down safely. It was windy and – 10 degrees Celsius, so we had to be dressed properly. Almost wool inside out.
I love these walks, because it give me so much energy. The anxiety ease of and I sleep better at nights. I am not depended on my friend, but the advantage is that we are pushing each other to reach our goal. But sometimes I have to to walk alone and then my companion is an audio book. It is not the same as the companion of a friend, but it makes the walk easier.

A very local snow shower

Trying to escape my cancer thoughts
My super motivational Fitbit watch

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Benign paroxysmal positional vertigo

I was really looking forward to a long, relaxing Christmas holiday. Christmas 2019 was not emotional calm because of my breast cancer. But what happened Christmas 2020? I was diagnosed benign paroxysmal positional vertigo – BPPV. Why me and why now?

Symptoms and diagnosis

The vertigo struck me like lighting one morning. I should just change my position, but all of a sudden I felt like running all the fastest carousels of the world. In addition I felt terribly nauseous and gradually I developed a headache. Just like that. I could not read the newspaper, watch television or listen to my audio books. It took approximately 15 minutes before I felt  better. Luckily, I had an appointment with my physiotherapist the same day, because I have been struggling with my back for a long period of time. But it was not a pleasant appointment to say it nicely.

At the physiotherapists office

We made som exercises to provoke several vertigo attacks to get the otoconia in place. It is more a maneuver than an exercise, called Dix hall. At the same time the physiotherapist observed my eyes for nystagmus. But during the maneuver I became gradually better, so I could finally relax. No doubt the diagnose was crystal clear, so I could let go of all my worst case thoughts.
Benign paroxysmal position vertigo

The treatment

My physiotherapist was at least optimistic on my behalf, because he meant that I would just need 3-4 appointments repeating the Dix hall maneuver. A friend of mine almost did not leave her bedroom for six months, so I have been lucky. I have just been a bit dizzy in some mornings and nothing like the first BPPV attack. In addition I have done some exercises at home, but have had no dizziness or nystagmus after my last appointment.
Exercise benign paroxysmal position vertigo
The comfort is that BPPV is not something I would die of, even though I was really anxious at first. Who would not be? It is rather normal, but BPPV is not a pleasant acquaintance. Let´s hope for a happy Christmas 2021…
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Unhappy New year with breast cancer

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The importance of Pinktober

Jeg trenger ikke å fortelle deg viktigheten av Pinktober, som er en påminnelse om å sjekke brystene dine, og vær så snill å gjøre det. Men hvis Pinktober er grunnen til at du undersøker brystet ditt minst en gang i året, er det bedre enn aldri, og jeg vil si at Pinktober har oppnådd noe.
Det er noen anbefalinger om hvordan du sjekker brystene dine. brystkreft og selvundersøkelse. Betydningen av Pinktober

Ikke en kreftreise

Jeg gjorde selvundersøkelsen med jevne mellomrom, men kunne ikke føle noe mistenkelig om jeg lå eller sto. Så jeg ble sjokkert da jeg bøyde meg fremover og så tilbaketrekningen i huden min. Verden min falt helt fra hverandre. Jeg visste bare med en gang hva det var, men likevel håpet jeg at det ikke var noe. På grunn av min sjokkerende opplevelse har jeg skrevet noen innlegg om kreften min. Det har fullstendig okkupert livet mitt, og det har ikke vært en reise. Det var et mareritt, et levende krefthelvete.

Flere mennesker lider

Moren min er 80 og hennes første reaksjon på meg da jeg fortalte henne var: Å nei! Er det slik det skal ende? Min eldste sønn gråt og min yngste sønn med ADHD og Tourettes syndrom ble enda mer hyperaktiv og hadde mer tics. Han var den jeg var mest opptatt av.
Min svigermor feiret julen 2019 sammen med meg og min familie. Hun kunne ikke forstå hvordan jeg kunne være så rolig i ferien. Men jeg sa til henne at jeg måtte være sterk for barna mine. På grunn av besøket hennes ble jeg på en måte tvunget til å tenke på andre ting enn kreften min. Jeg ønsket å lage en perfekt jul, som om det var min siste. Men jeg ble overveldet av følelser om nettene og kunne ikke sove.

Betydningen av Pinktober

Så vær så snill å be familiemedlemmene og vennene dine om å undersøke brystene, til og med menn. Noen få prosent av mennene får brystkreft hvert år også. Undersøkelsen tar ikke lang tid, og det er en investering i deg selv, hos mennesker du bryr deg om og elsker. Å bli diagnostisert så tidlig som mulig er så viktig, og prognosen din er god hvis du er i et tidlig stadium. Hvis det oppdages veldig tidlig, har du kanskje ikke annen behandling enn operasjonen, og bivirkningene er mindre.
Brystkreftbehandlingsplanen min

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